Fight or Flight.

This concept of fight or flight is an interesting one.. when is it time to continue fighting? and when is it time just to GAP it! I was thinking about this and I can say that this particular time with the way that im feeling? I really just want to run, run as fast as i can in the opposite direction overseas somewhere and just hide out for a long period of time. Not just because Im half embarassed of the fool that ive become but just because itll be the easiest option. I was talking with my dad today and he said the most profound things that really eat at me right now, my favourites were..

Bee for a smart girl you are naive.. & You need to stay and fight your problems directly.

I hate what ive become, I hate how weak I am, how selfish im being.. its soo stoopid. I think im over being in depresso mode. Ive learnt that to overcome things you gotta stand up tall no matter how hard it is and just face it. Face all the pain..Face all the shame..Face them. Happier days are seriously around the corner and if i dont tell myself this then well i dont know who'd continue to without feeling like they HAVE TO say things to make me feel better. ahhh gosh. im going off track now but yes fight or flight? 

Is the easiest way always the easiest way out? im starting to think not.. 

One love. 

bee.  

Getting back in touch..

Wow, So I haven't been on here in a while. I think its time for a revamp and maybe actually start to blog more. So its the new year and Ive been thinking about what goals I wanted to achieve and what I thought I could do personally to grow spiritually and also within my phsyical self and hmm im not a fan of new years resolutions but I think its in order to at least try to win a couple little personal goals. I have just returned from a short getaway to the fashion city captial of Melbcitayy. And I have to admit that I loved it, the atmosphere was amazing as too were the people I spent my time with. Good times :)

Now that, thats over.. I want to talk about Situations! and how people deal with certain ones..

I think one of the most hardest situations is the realisation of change. Im talking about those changes that sneak up on you? and you have no idea that youve actually changed so much, putting your character on the shelf whilst faking another?.. Is it okay to comprimise yourself for another person to get a chance or some sort of attention from them?.. I used to think that girls who did this.. were.. well WEAK? and had to open their eyes.. only to find out that I, MYSELF, this confident no ish taking girl is ONE OF THEM!.. *sigh*

Not to get all depresso on everyone ( maybe one person ) reading this but honestly Ive come to realise that uhmm uhh how do you say STOOPID..

Mama didnt raise me to be one of "those girls" she raised me to be confident and to be a girl that was needed not a girl that needed!

I guess thats the thing about love or "change" you dont know yourself sometimes.. you get soo far lost in it, that you dont realise that youre prolly losing the person that this guy/gal fell for in the first place.. its taken me so long to know but I can proudly say that im getting there.

Anyway sorry for the RANT! im glad thats off my chest.

loveeeee you

Bee :)