Fight or Flight.

This concept of fight or flight is an interesting one.. when is it time to continue fighting? and when is it time just to GAP it! I was thinking about this and I can say that this particular time with the way that im feeling? I really just want to run, run as fast as i can in the opposite direction overseas somewhere and just hide out for a long period of time. Not just because Im half embarassed of the fool that ive become but just because itll be the easiest option. I was talking with my dad today and he said the most profound things that really eat at me right now, my favourites were..

Bee for a smart girl you are naive.. & You need to stay and fight your problems directly.

I hate what ive become, I hate how weak I am, how selfish im being.. its soo stoopid. I think im over being in depresso mode. Ive learnt that to overcome things you gotta stand up tall no matter how hard it is and just face it. Face all the pain..Face all the shame..Face them. Happier days are seriously around the corner and if i dont tell myself this then well i dont know who'd continue to without feeling like they HAVE TO say things to make me feel better. ahhh gosh. im going off track now but yes fight or flight? 

Is the easiest way always the easiest way out? im starting to think not.. 

One love. 

bee.  

Getting back in touch..

Wow, So I haven't been on here in a while. I think its time for a revamp and maybe actually start to blog more. So its the new year and Ive been thinking about what goals I wanted to achieve and what I thought I could do personally to grow spiritually and also within my phsyical self and hmm im not a fan of new years resolutions but I think its in order to at least try to win a couple little personal goals. I have just returned from a short getaway to the fashion city captial of Melbcitayy. And I have to admit that I loved it, the atmosphere was amazing as too were the people I spent my time with. Good times :)

Now that, thats over.. I want to talk about Situations! and how people deal with certain ones..

I think one of the most hardest situations is the realisation of change. Im talking about those changes that sneak up on you? and you have no idea that youve actually changed so much, putting your character on the shelf whilst faking another?.. Is it okay to comprimise yourself for another person to get a chance or some sort of attention from them?.. I used to think that girls who did this.. were.. well WEAK? and had to open their eyes.. only to find out that I, MYSELF, this confident no ish taking girl is ONE OF THEM!.. *sigh*

Not to get all depresso on everyone ( maybe one person ) reading this but honestly Ive come to realise that uhmm uhh how do you say STOOPID..

Mama didnt raise me to be one of "those girls" she raised me to be confident and to be a girl that was needed not a girl that needed!

I guess thats the thing about love or "change" you dont know yourself sometimes.. you get soo far lost in it, that you dont realise that youre prolly losing the person that this guy/gal fell for in the first place.. its taken me so long to know but I can proudly say that im getting there.

Anyway sorry for the RANT! im glad thats off my chest.

loveeeee you

Bee :)

My life as a Romantic Movie.

Got inspired by my girl golds again :)
This a post she had. Who would act on your behalf; heres my list ;)


Me:

Raven Symone

Location:

Hawaii

The True Love:

The Rock

The Distraction:

Michael Ealy

The  Compeition:

 Jessica Alba

Mother:

Whitney Houston

Father: 

Freddy Fender

Sister:

 Jennifer Lopez

Best Friends:

Kate Bosworth

Hayden Panettiere

Rhianna

Isla Fisher

Unconditionally Gone.

The thing bout loving someone is that it makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that, that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defences. You build up this whole armour, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. Then they do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. You sit there and you wonder WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING. Why the hell am i so caught up with this. And then you realise. At the end of all of that pain and at the end of the suffering.. you just cant help it.. you love them no matter how much it hurts.


-B




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Forever, For Always, For Eternity.

Eternity is such a long time when you think about it. It goes on and on, and itll never stop. Ive wondered what it takes to be with someone for eternity and it somewhat scares me. The thought of spending the rest of eternity with someone. How is it that you get to be so in love with someone that you want to just love them for the of your life even it hurts you in the long run. I cant quite understand it yet when it comes to my personal exprience I feel like chucking my heart at that person you know.
I dont know; I dont see marriage as something light you know.. 'oh you know its JUST marriage.' uhh no its not just marriage, people these days think marriage is like changing your clothes or something. man o man. I dont know if i could do it. I dont know. lol I guess Ill have to wait and see if Eternity can last for me and that special someone in the future.

-B




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Let your heart be the map.

Came across this saying today and it intrigued me;

" LET YOUR HEART BE THE MAP"

Wow; could you imagine using your heart instead of your head to make decisions.. its your classic case of heart vs the head. But I wonder if it would be easier to listen to the heart and not the head?
And what would happen if you heart wanted to love another heart but that heart didnt want your heart back? I reckon id be a broken hearted girl if I listened to my heart all the time. Im glad my head balances out the decisions my heart wants to make.

I just hope my heart finds another worthy heart to love.

-B

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The Gravity of Love.

So; this is my first blog and i thought id give you a little background on my life just so that everyones up to date with everything. The names Branna and im islander hence the name thatfobchickbee. :) and im just a normal chick with a pretty funny life. Ive got my girls I have loving parents and alota boy troubles lol. Im usually Dr Phil with the relationship side of things but sometimes Dr Phil has problems of her own lols. But we'll get to that later on throughout my blogging i guess.

Anyway enough of the boring stuff; i got inspired to write this blog because of my girl Golds. 

So Golds thanks heaps for the inspiration.  

Now; I was thinking about it and SERIOUSLY! I do not get boys. Im not your typical girly girl so i do get some insight into how they act but when it comes to the subject of love, you dont know how a guy would react. Ive come up with a list of possibles you may get, now dont fully trust me on this but this is purely from my exprience and as they say most guys are the same,


 FIRST PUPPY LOVE:
Now this guy might not be all that BUT he is your first taste of  "love". The one that gives you those first feelings of giddy and your first butterflies, the one that either STUFFS or SHAPES the rest of your relationships lols.
Now I am glad i met the idiot that shaped my love life because if it wasnt for him i'd be one of those girls that are scared of men and get walked over like a mat. (not saying ive had some of those moments; the strong are weak too you know)


SEMI SERIOUS BORING GUY:
Now this guy you fall for, because he was BETTER than mr puppy love. This is the guy that actually treats you how you want to be treated and you know you could end up with but turns out to be extremely BORING. The one that eventually turns into a good friend and nothing more.


THE PLAYER:
Now we all know who the player is. He is the incredibley HOT guy that knows it. The one that can say one thing and youd melt. You dont actually care that the conversation isnt all that but at least he looks good haha.  The only problem is you know hes saying the same things that make you melt to 10 other girls. And HE LOVES IT! so not even worth the time.

THE USER:
This guy uses you for everything and ANYTHING. he has no heart. and deserves to be punched in the face.

THE NON-COMMITER:
This guy is worse than the player, I reckon, at least the player knows what he wants! This guy is the one that tells you everything you wanna hear and loves to hear everything you wanna say but just cant go that one step further by making it official, its like why get involved if you cant make your mind up and just COMMIT.

THE NICE GUY:
This guy is the nicest guy you have ever come across, he loves actually loves you for you and wants to do whatever you want. He's the one that will take you shopping, wait for you for hours, call you and text you whenever you want. Hes everything you want and more. But the saying " nice guys always finish last" also sometimes happens in relationships, the nice guy turns out to be like the semi-serious guy.. he just turns BORING.

THE OVER POWERING GUY:
This guy thinks hes the MAN.. the one that tells you what to do and when to do it. This guy is a DICK and you must stay away from him. If youve seen or heard of the movie Once were warriors: JAKE HEKE hes a OVERBOARDS version of "the overpowering guy". Just dont even go there.

THE BAD BOY:
This one is like the PLAYER cept he doesnt care about anything, lets say hes a mix of PLAYER & NON - COMMITER and a pinch of ATTITUDE. I personally think that bad boys are sexyyyy. haha but not worth the trouble in the end hell just break your heart cause girls no matter how bad you wanna change them you cant!

Last of all is

THE REAL DEAL (also known as the one):
*Warning: This guy could of started as the real one, then suddenly change into one of the guys above. *

Woah, this guy is the guy that takes your breath away. The one you seriously cant stop thinking about; hes the one that makes you wanna change for the better to make your relationship with him better. The one you cry for at night because you miss him. You feel it deep in your heart, Deep in your stomach that this guy no matter what arguements or differences is the one you wanna be with no matter what. haha yeahh THAT guy..

So yeah thats the list of guys ive made so far im sure theres more; but i think these few are the ones that are normally about. The trick is though not to even let the guy win. Be the BOSS from the start so that youre the one wearing the pants. Guys are Guys and theres never a way you can figure them out. They are like creatures from out of space you think you know all about them but you find out new and different things all the time.

Anyways enough of the blab from me;
I shall update you with my random thoughts again soon.

x

-B