The thing bout loving someone is that it makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens your heart and it means that, that someone can get inside you and mess you up. You build up all these defences. You build up this whole armour, for years, so nothing can hurt you, then one stupid person, no different from any other stupid person, wanders into your stupid life...You give them a piece of you. They don't ask for it. Then they do something dumb one day like kiss you, or smile at you, and then your life isn't your own anymore. Love takes hostages. It gets inside you. It eats you out and leaves you crying in the darkness, so a simple phrase like "maybe we should just be friends" or "how very perceptive" turns into a glass splinter working its way into your heart. It hurts. Not just in the imagination. Not just in the mind. It's a soul-hurt, a body-hurt, a real gets-inside-you-and-rips-you-apart pain. You sit there and you wonder WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING. Why the hell am i so caught up with this. And then you realise. At the end of all of that pain and at the end of the suffering.. you just cant help it.. you love them no matter how much it hurts.
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